Ramble

Darling, please understand I didn't exactly mean what I said. No, no I know that that doesn't make any sense, but if you listen I swear it will. When I said that thing that I said, that I now cannot repeat without you crying, I didn't say anything anywhere near what you heard. No, no I am not saying you misunderstood...I'm saying that I said what I meant all wrong. I meant...I miss you...I meant...I love you. And don't look at me like our fight had nothing to do with those things. It had everything to do with those things. That's what I am always trying to tell you. Do you think the thousands of things you do in a day would matter to me at all without those things? I have to remind you of them so often so you know that your actions carry extra weight these days. As do mine. How am I doing with that by the way? Are you happy? Have I accidentally hurt you at all? You have to let me know if I do, because if I've hurt you, I've hurt us both. To get back to the point...I said what I did because I am an over-sensitive fool, head over heels in love with you, whom you should always be gentle with. Does this mean I am sorry? Of course it does, haven't you been listening? Yes, yes I am sorry. I love you.